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Post by Proud on Oct 7, 2004 21:53:00 GMT -5
i honestly have no desire to listen to depressing music anymore. during my early and mid teens, that's all i wanted. haha, i thought nirvana was the best band ever.
in recent history i've been into fun, bouncy stuff. i can use an alice in chains tune every once in awhile, but the fact that... 99.9999% of their stuff is meant to be massively depressing keeps me from listening to them too often. i guess the whole "grunge" thing has kinda run its course to me. and to think i used to swear by it, and i was refered to as being the grungey guy and all that... heh.
i don't think i have any true favorite bands anymore... i just go from song to song and album to album. listening to the new r.e.m. and green day albums and rocking out to the new u2 single, anyway...
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Post by samplestiltskin on Oct 7, 2004 21:55:22 GMT -5
Do you smoke, Proud? Man, I can't even run a mile anymore, and I only smoke like five cigarettes a day at MOST.
You should figure out if anything triggers those bouts of depression. When you say "rebound" it makes me think you were depressed because of something, whether you know what it is or not. And it's always good if you can pinpoint a problem, cos then you can find a way to deal with it. Er. If that makes sense. Probably not. ;D
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Post by samplestiltskin on Oct 7, 2004 22:00:37 GMT -5
Oh, man. A lift in depression has done nothing for my musical tolerance. Half the songs I hear on the radio make me cringe and want to sob they're so bad. I'm sorry, but the new Green Day is just abysmal. That new song by The Something Benjamins or something, "You're So Cold", unashamedly ripping off (and botching!) Tool... that new Blink 182 piece of poo.... I'm sick to death of damn Franz Ferdinand..... I heard that Sheryl Crow/Kid Rock song today, talk about "slow hell".... all that shit they throw at us makes me insane!! I really take it personally. Fucking insulted that they play crap and expect me to enjoy it. Crap I say!
Sorry. This rant has been building for months now.
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Post by Proud on Oct 7, 2004 22:01:59 GMT -5
never smoked, don't want to. friend's brother always tries shoving cigarettes into my mouth but i've fended him off everytime. i don't need or want an expensive habit like that that slowly kills my lungs. i have enough health issues as is without adding something like that! besides, i'm getting into better physical shape, and i've always been against using drugs (for me, that is... if other people want to use them, that's their right). i've gotten drunk a couple times, but i haven't any alcohol in a seemingly long time. not an addict, no.
my depressions come from a mixture of self doubt and loneliness. as time goes on though, i realize i'm not truly alone. i guess i just want to be closer to some people than i am. and i'd like them to think of me in ways that i think of them. it's really kinda enh when no one's sending you e-mails or ims or whatever else. but i know that a lot of people out there like talking to me or care about my problems so i'm cool with that. as soon as i get accepted into a 4 year school of my liking, i think i'll take on a new form of myself. one of intelligence, ambition. and compassion.
someday.
oh, somedaaayy... i ain't wastin' no more... tiii iii iii ii iii iii iii iiime...
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Post by samplestiltskin on Oct 7, 2004 22:11:06 GMT -5
Proud, something huge that I've had to work on is becoming dependent on myself. I always needed someone else, to feel valued or worthwhile. I still struggle, but the more I remind myself I'm the only person whose love is necessary for my happiness and it doesn't matter how anybody else feels about me, the healthier I feel. Self-doubt stunts everything.
Man, I hate "born-again" people who preach. I'm gonna take off again. Hello RS! Be good.
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Post by Thorngrub on Oct 14, 2004 11:13:13 GMT -5
"never smoked" - proud
Yeah but . . .*wink wink* ... do ya "smoke" - *nudge nudge* - ?
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Post by Proud on Oct 18, 2004 18:30:28 GMT -5
i don't mind if people are religious, as long as they respect the rights of others to believe or not believe as those individuals see fit. but yeah, some people believe you can't be a good person without being 'god fearing', and i don't agree with that at all. not saying religion is bad, though... religion is great, when conceived in peaceful, prosperous, and spiritual ways.
haha, thorn, i've never smoked anything. except i think i ate smoked ham before. ... don't take that the wrong way!
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Post by Thorngrub on Oct 19, 2004 15:25:14 GMT -5
 "Mmmmm....Smoked Haaaam!" |
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Post by ScottsyII on Oct 30, 2004 22:34:30 GMT -5
Awesome pic Thorn! Gotta love the animated Homer stuff you can find around the 'net!
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Post by ScottsyII on Oct 30, 2004 22:39:16 GMT -5
I used to be WAY moodier when I was younger, but now as I am heading for thirty at an alarmingly fast rate, I find myself on a much more even plain emotionally speaking...
I think I have just become much more secure in myself as a person, I know what I stand for, what I value.
Being in a stable relationship with Mellie helps that feeling of stability greatly too, we bounce that off each other quite well, we give each other a strong sense of who we are, as individuals, and as people together in a relationship. It's a very, very good thing indeed!
I noticed i really started to clear up my moods / depression around 27 years of age... I think I gained this broader perspective of life that allows me not to fuss too much, to have faith that things will turn my way, no matter how bad they look at the time... and to just live each day by the day, and deal with each thing confidently as they come...
I feel like I am pretty strong person, whereas about 5 - 7 years ago I think my emotions and outlook would fluctuate quite a bit!
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Post by ScottsyII on Nov 4, 2004 6:21:03 GMT -5
*hopes he didn't kill the board*
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Post by Proud on Nov 4, 2004 14:48:43 GMT -5
i need booze, and plenty of it.
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Knight
Streetcorner Musician
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Post by Knight on Nov 30, 2004 20:51:54 GMT -5
Hey Proud, long time no see. Good to see you man.
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Post by Thorngrub on Dec 10, 2004 10:26:40 GMT -5
Well I'm depressed.
See you on the backside of forever, Dimebag.
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Post by ScottsyII on Dec 11, 2004 7:54:25 GMT -5
Yeah, kinda chilling news about Dimebag, that... I mean someone just strode on up to the stage and took a shot.... that's just damn scary.
It sucks, because again we're denied a great musician and indeed, an entirely innocent person (or several people in fact0 had to lose their lives over one stupid fucker who couldn't sort his shit out.
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