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Post by samplestiltskin on Jun 16, 2005 11:30:02 GMT -5
I am so curious to know why that change occurs with pot-smokers. Some people never seem to have that issue arise. Is it a chemical change? Environmental? External or internal? Argh. I must know.
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Post by Ampage on Jun 16, 2005 11:38:46 GMT -5
I don’t know what it was, but it took the fun right out of it. Nothing like feeling trapped in your own bedroom for fear of the people the people the people.
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Post by Meursault on Jun 16, 2005 11:40:03 GMT -5
Well for me I think it may be a combination of having smoked to much since September 2001, i had a year off before that. Also because I have to stop escaping from my natural state of mind/dealing with life and getting myself on a path that doesn't lead to indecisiveness and wasting time.
The absolute worst weed experience I was listening to the Surf's Up album with my roommate and I thought I had lost my mind. The last songs on the album lasted 3 minutes...but i swear it lasted 15 with of course most of it just being melodic madness. I felt apart from myself, i thought i was about to jump out of my skin. I felt extremely isolated as the same time and very much human without all the pretensions.
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Post by pissin2 on Jun 16, 2005 11:52:21 GMT -5
I can't imagine pot ever not being fun. Sometimes it makes me lazy and waste time, but I expect that. When I smoke it's to chill and have fun. Not look for a new job or build a rocketship. I never really get paranoid when I'm high. It's all in your head anyway. If you're paranoid when you're high, you're a paranoid person in general. Weed just enhances it. It enhances basically whatever you're feeling at the time. If you're truly happy, and you get high, then you should still be happy. Same if you're sad.
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Post by samplestiltskin on Jun 16, 2005 12:00:03 GMT -5
Actually that would make sense, but I have to disagree. I've never been as happy as I have been lately, but I'll take two hits and have a wretched anxiety attack. I'll get convinced that someone is going to jump me and hurt me, or that everything I say is making people think "Oh my god, what is WRONG with her?" or, my favourite, I get this delusion that all my life I've been mentally retarded and everyone has been too kind to tell me. Powerful delusions, and yet I've never been so at peace with my life.
On the flip side, a couple years ago I was miserable, just horribly depressed and anxiety-ridden, but when I smoked pot I felt fine. So tell me how that works.
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Post by Meursault on Jun 16, 2005 12:03:51 GMT -5
I disagree. While that time i was depressed and felt like shit, there are plenty of times where it just made me paranoid. My frame of mind, and setting at one time use to play a major role in how I felt, but now the role is less and less. Drugs aren't exactly healthy for us, despite sometimes enhancing our good moods, or clouding our dark moods.
I don't feel the need personally to smoke mass quantities of dope or even really much at all. It's just become a bit juvenile, and i'mgrowing out of it.
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Post by Meursault on Jun 16, 2005 12:06:11 GMT -5
samples, that retarded things is kinda funny. Lately I get that out of place feeling where it's like "haha, primates playing dress up....oh no they are on to me."
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Post by samplestiltskin on Jun 16, 2005 12:18:06 GMT -5
Ha. How Gary Larsen-esque. That's funny.
I once spent an entire night on ecstacy being entirely convinced I was millions of years old and basically God, looking down upon my creations (people around me) with gentle lovingkindness, hehe. That was fun.
Man I don't want to say that I've "grown out of" marijuana because that would imply that I'm maturing (horror of horrors! here comes the state career, the SUV, the husband, the J.C. Penney sales, the kids.... NO. WAY.) but I wonder if it's somewhat true. I don't look down on stoners, I'm extremely fond of most stoners I know, they rule. But I feel like I don't really need it anymore. Hm. Deep thoughts, by Jack Handey...
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Post by Meursault on Jun 16, 2005 12:34:52 GMT -5
I'd be a happy being sober, and no kids, and rich because i don't have a family or woman i have to keep happy with fancy possesions.  |
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Post by samplestiltskin on Jun 16, 2005 12:38:34 GMT -5
wait. we're supposed to get fancy possessions? shit! and here i've been satisfied with shoes found in dumpsters, hand-rolled cigarettes and back-rubs. i'm glad you told me.
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Post by pissin2 on Jun 16, 2005 12:40:04 GMT -5
Actually that would make sense, but I have to disagree. I've never been as happy as I have been lately, but I'll take two hits and have a wretched anxiety attack. I'll get convinced that someone is going to jump me and hurt me, or that everything I say is making people think "Oh my god, what is WRONG with her?" or, my favourite, I get this delusion that all my life I've been mentally retarded and everyone has been too kind to tell me. Powerful delusions, and yet I've never been so at peace with my life. On the flip side, a couple years ago I was miserable, just horribly depressed and anxiety-ridden, but when I smoked pot I felt fine. So tell me how that works. Um....................I don't know. You know what, you sould send a bunch of question in to High Times, and see what they say. Actually I can say I've been depressed or sad plenty of times, and pot makes me feel at least a little better. But it never makes me feel bad when I'm already feeling good. I just can't see that ever happening. If I did start feeling that way I'd probably stop and go "what the hell is wrong with me?" and put on Family Guy. |
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Post by Meursault on Jun 16, 2005 12:41:57 GMT -5
Well that's if you manage to "accidentaly" get pregnant and rope a guy with a conscience in.
Could make for a very comfortable lifestyle. Kids....a woman's ticket to paradise.
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Post by Meursault on Jun 16, 2005 12:43:49 GMT -5
You should be asking yourself exactly what the hell is wrong with you, that's how you better yourself. Healthy mind, healthy body.
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Post by pissin2 on Jun 16, 2005 12:48:44 GMT -5
There aint nothing wrong with me.
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Post by Ampage on Jun 16, 2005 12:51:40 GMT -5
The first step is admitting it.
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