Post by Ayinger on Mar 21, 2007 19:40:24 GMT -5
Excuse me but I don't know what I'm going to type and I'm NOT meaning to exclude ANY of what Samps and Sis just wrote....but
the timing of the 'old' Bared Souls at RS was hitting at just a certain time and will within me. god, for a stranger, Jeff (stratO to most) and I leaned on each other now and then in those times.....there's something about those moments and even if we've not traded much words over the past couple of years, well that shit back then is still solid. I went through what he was going through and he was always a strong soundboard back as well.
It wasn't far back that Skvorecky posted some shit here and even though I don't know the dude, I felt so much in common, 'been there/know what you're going through', waves going through me when I read his stuff but couldn't get myself to post back and felt SO fuckin' worthless not doing so that I could almost cry now about it...... Felt like I was leaving the man hanging with maybe I could have said at least SOMEthing but was just too burnt myself at the moment.....
I don't even feel I really know Samps but have absorbed enough of her posts to get this sense that she's a youngun I'd probably fall into wanting to mentor or something (or at least drag out for a few many drinks until we hit onto that 'we can solve the world's problems' mentality....gawd ya just gotta fight back sometimes....). Her realizations of where she once was to where she is now is a continuing study ALL of us should/are be doing. People, I'm 45 now and let me tell you, that shit doesn't EVER stop! If you think you do have the world by its ass...HHAAHAHA, I'll bet you my last greying hair that you're in for one BIG suprise.
Hey...my joy in life today after working my ass off but still getting home in time to enjoy the low-70's March temps, mixing up a martini and blazing up a stogie on the apartment balcony and just simply disappearing for an hour reading a book and watching the sun ease on down the horizon. Wondering what puts a cloud way up there above, observing the subtle tango played out between the doves resting on the utility wires, and just fucking breathing in the damn air and realizing I'm a part of it some how.....but dammit, that's the point: we're ALL are a part of it.
the timing of the 'old' Bared Souls at RS was hitting at just a certain time and will within me. god, for a stranger, Jeff (stratO to most) and I leaned on each other now and then in those times.....there's something about those moments and even if we've not traded much words over the past couple of years, well that shit back then is still solid. I went through what he was going through and he was always a strong soundboard back as well.
It wasn't far back that Skvorecky posted some shit here and even though I don't know the dude, I felt so much in common, 'been there/know what you're going through', waves going through me when I read his stuff but couldn't get myself to post back and felt SO fuckin' worthless not doing so that I could almost cry now about it...... Felt like I was leaving the man hanging with maybe I could have said at least SOMEthing but was just too burnt myself at the moment.....
I don't even feel I really know Samps but have absorbed enough of her posts to get this sense that she's a youngun I'd probably fall into wanting to mentor or something (or at least drag out for a few many drinks until we hit onto that 'we can solve the world's problems' mentality....gawd ya just gotta fight back sometimes....). Her realizations of where she once was to where she is now is a continuing study ALL of us should/are be doing. People, I'm 45 now and let me tell you, that shit doesn't EVER stop! If you think you do have the world by its ass...HHAAHAHA, I'll bet you my last greying hair that you're in for one BIG suprise.
Hey...my joy in life today after working my ass off but still getting home in time to enjoy the low-70's March temps, mixing up a martini and blazing up a stogie on the apartment balcony and just simply disappearing for an hour reading a book and watching the sun ease on down the horizon. Wondering what puts a cloud way up there above, observing the subtle tango played out between the doves resting on the utility wires, and just fucking breathing in the damn air and realizing I'm a part of it some how.....but dammit, that's the point: we're ALL are a part of it.
get it?
